Wednesday, December 5, 2007

bang! bull's eye.

What's "complicated" and why does it hurt?
It's when you don't know where you stand in a person's life.
It's when you're hanging in dead air and
knowin' you can be thrown off anytime.
It's when you're like more than friends
but not really,
and it's like you're lovers when it's actually otherwise.

Sometimes you would wish
you had never met that person at all,
but at the back of your mind,

you're so thankful you did.


-- from a text message.

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

the world has a lot of limiting factors

Each of us has the desire to grow, the desire to succeed and achieve our goals. We all wanted a life that's smooth sailing, a life where we can surpass all the trials that may come our way. In reality, that's not the case. There are trials that we will not surpass, and there are goals that we will not achieve. One of the reasons is simply because the world is filled with a lot of limiting factors. These limiting factors prohibit us from doing the things we have to do.

-..to be continued..-

Monday, November 12, 2007

three out of five

"we were supposed to be five children in our family. and now, we're only 3."


I've just recently discovered that reality when me and my mom were on our way to Glorietta last Friday(November 9, 2007). I wasn't supposed to be the eldest of my parents' children. Mom had a miscarriage probably during 1988. I thought, "I could've had an elder brother... or a sister?! I always wanted to have an elder sibling." but then, i felt sad for my mom. When I looked in her eyes, I saw loneliness and perhaps there's still pain left inside of her. I asked why she had a miscarriage. She said it might be due to too much stress and pressure. Then I asked her about the second miscarriage. She said that she can't remember when it occurred. I guess she doesn't want to recall that anymore. She also told me that she's not allowed to have early pregnancies after my birth because she had a cesearean operation.. that might triggered the second miscarriage, i don't know, I'm not sure. All I know is, we were supposed to be 5 children (either 2 more brothers, or 2 sisters or a brother and a sister). A gloomy vibe filled my entire soul. I felt really sad. After 18 years of my existence that I've just discovered these sad incidents that happened to my mom. Although some part of me is feeling lonely, a part of me is relieved. Relieved because I could have been the one that died, or the one that was never born into this world. Luckily, I am here. I am alive. I am relieved because If all of us are living, we would probably die anyway due to starvation. We may not have the life that we have now. We may be one of those people who beg for money to make a living. Maybe God lets us experience pain for us to appreciate more what it means to be happy. God lets things to happen for a reason, and that reason is not to make us weak but to make us stronger individuals.

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To the siblings I never had, I love you. :) I know someday we'll finally meet maybe not in this world, but in heaven.

To my brothers, I love you and despite the times that I want you both to evaporate into this world, I've realized that I am BLESSED to have you in my life. and I am THANKFUL that you are my brothers. You're not perfect, but at least your imperfections are the ones that would mold you into better beings of God. Perhaps, someday many people will look up to you.

To my mom and dad, thank you for breathing life to us. Without you, me and my brothers wouldn't be here. Thank You for the countless times you've sacrificed for us. I admire you for making ends meet just to give your children the best of life. Thank you for the undying and unconditional love you're continuously been giving us. Thank you and we Love you Mama and Papa.

Friday, November 2, 2007

kill the world, make it a better place?

"Grandeur mausoleums prove that the dead lives in a better place than the living."

Friday, October 12, 2007

we give some, we LOSE some.

"The hardest part of being selfless is losing yourself."

It's really hard to think less of yourself and more of other people.
It's unfair to consider other people's feelings rather than your own emotions.
It ain't right to care for other people who's never gonna care for you that much.
It's unusual to continue being good to someone who's been taking you for granted
for the longest of time.

But still you chose to love the only way your heart knows to love, selfless.

You willingly give your all despite the knowledge that no matter how much
you will receive it is still not as much as what you have given.

But sometimes, in the stillness of everything you demand for attention, for reciprocation,
for a reward, for something in return, or even just a sign of appreciation.

There is this part of you that wants to be loved the way you have loved.
for Once, the selfless wanted to be the selfish.
the giver wanted to be the receiver.
the lover wanted to be the loved one.
the friend who's always there wanted someone
to be there for him as well.

No matter how badly you want things to happen the way you prefer to,
it won't happen that quickly.

:(


"I want to know how it feels to be wanted, to be loved and to be cared for."

Monday, October 8, 2007

LA SALLE's LUCKY NUMBER : 7!!

got this from keith's multiply... which he got from another person's multiply. haha.

LA SALLE (HAS 7 LETTERS) WINS ITS 7TH TITLE ON THE 7TH DAY OF OCTOBER 2007 IN THE 7TH DECADE OF THE UAAP WHICH HAD ITS FIRST GAME ON JULY 7, 2007.

1. La Salle wins its 7th Title

2. 7th Decade of UAAP. Season 70. 7+0=7
3. 7th day of October

4. Year 2007
5. We beat Ateneo Twice(2) in 5 Games = 7

6. 2 is Greather than 14 ( 14 divided by 2 = 7)
7. La Salle has 7 letters

8. Halftime Score of DLSU is 34. 3+4=7
9. 3rd Quarter ends with DLSU at 52. Again 5+2=7

10. LaSalle has an overall record of 19 wins 6 loses. 19+6=25. 2+5 = 7
11. UE has an overall record of 14 wins and 2 loses. 14+2=16. 1+6 = 7

12. Pumaren has 7 letters
13. The replay was aired last night at channel 61. 6+1=7

14. Archers = 7 letters
15. Final Score is 73-64= 9. Nine (9) points - Game (2) = 7

finally,
DLSU's address:
2401 Taft Avenue..
2 + 4 + 0 + 1 = Yes, that's correct...7 !!!

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

this begins today..

from now on i'll be setting boundaries.. limits..




this is the day where i shall draw the line.




nakakasawa na tlga..



i'm tired.. i really am!