Tuesday, July 24, 2007

DLSU vs. ADMU UAAP GAME jitters!


tomorrow will be the game of the "La Salle Green Archers" vs. ateneo blue eagles..

Even though i will not (despite the fact that i badly want to) watch the UAAP game tomorrow, i will surely support the Green Archers.. Once again, the blue eagles shall fall. ahaha. weeee. *if ur an atenean, and ur reading this blog.. wag kang magdrama jan.. this is my prerogative so wag kang magalit. ahaha.*

Monday, July 23, 2007

Pain : you can run from it, but you can't hide.

"There's always a point in our lives where we will say that we're used to feeling all the pains of hell... but everytime the wrath and angst of the world inflict our frail hearts, we still get hurt.. none of us will be spared from pain."

not even an armor can shield a soldier from experiencing pain.

not even money can comfort us.

not even intelligence can solve the probability of how to prevent pain.

a doctor can only cure a pain inflicted by physical things

but it can never cure the pain caused by thrown words

that hit your heart, by emotional and mental trauma

and all factors that could break someone's heart and soul.

it just won't work.

because pain is part of our everyday lives.

it's a natural occurence.

an innate emotion.

one can experience pain

even without outside forces.

pain can sometimes be


a lot of people believe that disregarding pain

is the best way of ending pain.

other's resulted from the gravest act

any frustated and emotionally battered

person would do:


but neither of the two will do,

trying to be numb of all the pain

is like depositing all your pains in a PAIN BANK.

you're just storing all your pains with interest,

killing yourself. on the other hand, will

give you more pain than what you have now.

suicide isn't solving your problems

it's surrendering your very own life.

it's the highest form of giving-up, wahahaha.


i may not give a concrete answer to all the pains in the world

but this i would like to say:

Embrace the pain. Acknowledge it but don't drown yourself in it.

Cry once in a while. You can break vases, or other people's faces(joke!) if you want to.

But after all of that, wipe your tears away, stand up and pull yourself together.

fix what is broken.

rebuild what has fallen apart.





those who never faced pain will never appreciate what it means to be really


for there wouldn't be happiness without pain and sorrow.

nagpapaka-emo lang..

Thursday, July 19, 2007

sleepless night..

i slept at 5 am. wow.

then i woke up at 9:30 am. T.T

4 hours and 40 minutes of incomplete sleep.

^.^ *bummer*

i still need to memorize our script for a role play in ELEMFRE(French) aarghh.

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

flash back : Regrets

*taken from an entry at my tabulas blog*
-- published : 2006. :)

I have lots of regrets in life, lots of things i wished i didn't do or indulge myself into something. Though most people would say that "One should not have regrets in life", we can never deny the fact that we regret things that happen in our life.

Ever since I was a child, I do some things and end up realizing that i should'nt have done it. I usually regret things that I did that are making my life so-called "miserable." Like words I say to my mom that eventually lead to arguments, Like stuffs I do to my friends that made us quarelling, Like not studying that made me have low grades and many more instances.

Now in college, I have never been more "frustrated" in my entire life. I have never felt so down, so low, so degraded. DLSU did not bring out the best in me, instead it magnified what's worse in me. The question is : "Will i regret studying at the DLSU?" My answer is : "I don't know. I'm not sure." There is yet to discover. and besides, I have friends at DLSU that would keep me company.

I have lots of regrets in life. And I admitted it. I accepted it. I can never go back in time to change the things i regret. But this i know : I have one life to live. Might as well live it to the fullest. Frequent thinking of regrets would'nt be much of a help neither will denying that you have regrets in life.

Thursday, July 12, 2007

math anxiety

I was never really that good in math.

the highest grade i ever had in math was 92/93.

well, that was back HighschooL then. :D

Now, i think my brain is deteriorating!..

I got 23/100 in our first exam at ANMATH.

and i don't know if i'll pass the second exam.

er, i think i'll fail the 2nd exam hahahaha.

Oh God, why am I not good in Math? Hahahaha..

Sometimes, I envy Math Wizards.. because of all the subjects, Math is my waterloo.
It's my weakest point. Make me write a poem, make me paint in a canvass, but never ever make me solve a CALCULUS Problem! Hahahahaha..

- - it's currently raining.
i can hear the sound of the wind and the rain falling from the sky.
i'm actually here at our computer lab at Gox 302.

Sunday, July 1, 2007

:D weee.

Sometimes, it' hard to be different, to live a life that's not according to the norms of the society, to act differently.. but I know, no matter how I don't seem to be normal or good enough in the eyes of everybody, there's someone great up there who understands me perfectly.

Not anymore.

"We don't do the "family bonding" anymore. We stopped doing that a long time ago, so long that i can't seem to remember what's the last movie we watched as a whole family. so long that i can't remember the last dinner we had as a family."

Change is the only thing that's constant. ΓΌ
and whether we like it or not, everything's gonna change.